billy nomates
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recurring dreamhere's a good one.....years ago i used to work for merrill lynch.....
my boss went away for six weeks-in the meantime i made a record profit.........the 2 big bosses were so happy they gave me a 100% pay rise..........when the guy i was working with/for came back he realllllllly
hated me and made my life hell for about 9 months -(because i was better at trading than he was)
i left and got another 50% rise on top-
now what is really odd is that i keep dreaming about working at merrill and in my dreams the 'enemy' is the 2 bosses who were actually not .....
in real life i didnt regret leaving because i made more money and became a better trader because i didnt have the massive resources of merrill behind me.....
my real problem came with a person many years later who was put in charge of trading but knew sweet f/a............
yet i never dream about this..........
any ides?
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laura
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i feel that your dream has returned to your old place of work as this was a time when you felt secure in your life.... you felt secure in yourself and your achievements.... your bosses now appear to you as enemies.... i feel that your subconscious is telling you your need to be your own boss..to be able to be a free thinker.....
when you dream ..do you dream consciously?? (that is are you able to realise what you are dreaming and ask what it means?) if you can do this ask...and continue to watch the dream...it's amazing to see the answers come flooding in.
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meiah
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Do you feel uncomfortable with being rewarded, with success? That it may be fleeting, untrustworthy? That those who encourage you may be setting you up fr a fall?
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billy nomates
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i will try to make it into a lucid dream...its not something i have done or managed before but that doesnt atter..........
as for ' sucess' i feel i actually deserve it.........not being bigheaded but i know so many people that do not have my talent (in certain areas)yet they have climbed the slippery slope.........not that i need to be a bigshot or have recognition or sycophants bolstering my ego............
it is just that there any many things i would like to do in life but they require money............i have a kind of shit or bust mentality.....if i do something i want to do it 100%.....
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meiah
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Are you willing to work for it?
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billy nomates
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yes willing to work......i used to work from 7.30 am until 6pm sometimes 9/10pm and then liase with tokyo thru the night.........
i am not averse to training or putting in the hours.........i need a break though as every job i seem to look at requires experience........its a catch 22 situation as nobody wants to train anyone..... 
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meiah
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Have you tried talking to them? Getting advice and feedback from the people who count? A call costs very little, and the guidance could be priceless.
Worth a try 
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